Pleasure Paralysis
by John on Sep.07, 2009, under Main Stuff
Most of you folks know me pretty well. When I’m on a roll, the one thing I want to do is keep it going. Oftentimes this means I will overwork myself, even in matters like relaxation. This weekend was a good example of this. I didn’t just manage to reach my “responsible” goals, I also met my “slacker gamer nerd” goals and then some. In fact, as it turns out, I have the rest of the week’s responsibilities and tasks plotted out and prepared for– all that remains is to execute them at the proper times. I have literally automated myself out of things that I “need” to do.
Ordinarily I would take this time, since I’m feeling especially productive, to automate more stuff; bizarrely that is its own form of relaxation for me. I find myself now with nothing left to automate– I don’t have any tasks that can be prepared for ahead of time, and I can’t start any larger tasks now because I only have a couple of hours. So I turn now to the inevitable task of figuring out what to slack off with next.
I have absolutely no idea. Which is at once wonderful and terrifying.
